Can I be linear?
I wondered if I could put this blog into a logical sequence. It might make more sense that way as opposed to a string of out of time sequence anecdotes.
I moved to the big city. I was not a physical person. Just your regular corporate worker kind of guy. I had never lived in a big city before. I approached the experience with caution and trepidation. It was almost like I expected.
For some reason, I seemed to have trouble follow me. I felt I minded my own business in my travels around town. Maybe my experiences are familiar to any person in a large city. I had a few instances of conflict with total strangers on public transport or on the street. It was like I was a magnet drawing these troublesome people to me.
Maybe I asked for it. I was wide eyed with wonder at the sights of the big city. If I saw prostitues or homeless people or troublesome looking gang people, I looked at them. I had never seen that before. I was curious and wanted to figure them out. Looking back now, I know that those kinds of people feel threatened by attention. My interest might have caused them to react to me.
I was on public transit one day. A guy sat next to me and began to give me trouble. I ignored it for a little bit. When it became apparent he was not going to stop, I got up and moved away.
The man was drunk. He was openly obnoxiuous on the train. After I got up and walked away. He continued to talk loudly and make comments to the people around him. After I moved, I noticed a very large man in a security uniform. I gave him a meaningful look as if to say, "you are security. You should make this man behave". I don't know if he was security for the train or not. He might have been on his way home from work.
He just looked at me and didn't react. He probably was going to or from work. I had an epiphany at that moment. If you couldn't trust security to make people behave, you could have some real trouble in the big city.
That incident cemented my decision. I had entertained the idea of taking a self defense class before. There didn't seem to be a real need. I had looked at one that was closed when I was there. My urge to sign up was not strong enough to bring me back. This incident changed those feelings.
I decided I was going to sign up for some kind of self defense class.
I moved to the big city. I was not a physical person. Just your regular corporate worker kind of guy. I had never lived in a big city before. I approached the experience with caution and trepidation. It was almost like I expected.
For some reason, I seemed to have trouble follow me. I felt I minded my own business in my travels around town. Maybe my experiences are familiar to any person in a large city. I had a few instances of conflict with total strangers on public transport or on the street. It was like I was a magnet drawing these troublesome people to me.
Maybe I asked for it. I was wide eyed with wonder at the sights of the big city. If I saw prostitues or homeless people or troublesome looking gang people, I looked at them. I had never seen that before. I was curious and wanted to figure them out. Looking back now, I know that those kinds of people feel threatened by attention. My interest might have caused them to react to me.
I was on public transit one day. A guy sat next to me and began to give me trouble. I ignored it for a little bit. When it became apparent he was not going to stop, I got up and moved away.
The man was drunk. He was openly obnoxiuous on the train. After I got up and walked away. He continued to talk loudly and make comments to the people around him. After I moved, I noticed a very large man in a security uniform. I gave him a meaningful look as if to say, "you are security. You should make this man behave". I don't know if he was security for the train or not. He might have been on his way home from work.
He just looked at me and didn't react. He probably was going to or from work. I had an epiphany at that moment. If you couldn't trust security to make people behave, you could have some real trouble in the big city.
That incident cemented my decision. I had entertained the idea of taking a self defense class before. There didn't seem to be a real need. I had looked at one that was closed when I was there. My urge to sign up was not strong enough to bring me back. This incident changed those feelings.
I decided I was going to sign up for some kind of self defense class.
